I almost accomplished a political post in time for the primaries. Almost. Seriously, there’s even a draft half-finished. Sigh. Perhaps I’ll get it finished in time for the general election. And you know what else? I’m still not even sure who I’m voting for in the senate race. Terrible, huh? It’s the day before the election and I’m still wavering. Kevin and I are planning to review the KTOO debate tonight (we TIVO’d it, but I think it’s also available on youtube), and then we’ll decide. I’m kind of silly about voting for people. I might like 99 percent of what someone says, but if they do one goofy thing (like, uh, I dunno, produce ads that do nothing but knock their opponent) I’m torn.

So, I don’t yet know how I’m going to vote tomorrow, but I do know one thing: I AM A FOOL. Ouch. That kind of hurts to write and mean it, but I do. A majority of the time when I read in the bible about something a fool does vs. a wise man, my actions are easily joined to that of the fool. Ugh. And then today, a reminder from James’ letter to the scattered Christians (I recently learned those folks are called the diaspora. Don’t you just love all those theologicky soundin’ words?!):

Who among you is wise and understanding? (not me!) Let him show by his good behavior his deeds in the gentleness of wisdom. But if you have bitter jealousy and selfish ambition in your heart (I do, I do!), do not be arrogant and so lie against the truth. This wisdom is not that which comes down from above, but is earthly, natural, demonic. (Aaaaah!) For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there is disorder and every evil thing. But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peacable, gentle, reasonable, full of mercy and good fruits, unwavering, without hypocrisy. And the seed whose fruit is righteousness is sown in peace by those who make peace. (3:13-18)

Let’s just say that I have more in common with the first part of that section than I’d prefer to admit. Ugh. But wait! There it is, my hope! “But the wisdom from above is…” James knows where to find what I need. I want that kind of wisdom, because without it I’ll just live and die a fool. Lucky for me (ha) earlier in the letter, James explains how to obtain this wisdom from above.

But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all generously and without reproach, and it will be given to him. But he must ask in faith without any doubting, for the one who doubts is like the surf of the sea, driven and tossed by the wind.  (1:5,6)

Alrighty then, that sounds simple enough. I’ll ask, because I know I’m just a fool. Lord, I don’t doubt you! You have done nothing but good for me, though I have deserved nothing. Rather, I deserve the eternal Hell that you have redeemed me from. I am forever indebted. Come to think of it, a bit of wisdom would really just be “icing on the cake”.

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